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  ADC - Definition: The experience of having some contact with a person that has died. Some report hearing, seeing, sensing, or feeling the spirit of the deceased.

 

Nicholas passed away in November 2002, and the first Christmas without him was so incredibly sad.  I had joined the SUDC group and was reading how each of them remember their children for the Holidays.  Someone said that they buy an angel for their tree each year.  I thought about it but didn't really think that was significant for me.  Until one day I was looking through a Hallmark catalog and I saw this angel ornament.  When I saw it I got shivers.  It looks just like my Nicholas (not your usual cherub) he has brown hair parted on the side, he is wearing green (a color I used to put him in often) and he's playing with bells (he was very musically oriented) and his eyes are closed (he died during his sleep).  I just thought Nicholas sent me this as a message that in fact he was indeed an angel.  I ran out to Hallmark and bought about 15 of these angel ornaments.  That year, that was the present I gave to everyone who knew him.
 
During the same Holiday season, on other day, I was looking through an Avon catalog (I never do, but it was there at work) and they had two angel dolls and the boy doll was named Nicholas with brown hair, so of course I had to buy it.  I felt that was another confirmation of his message that he was an angel.
 

          

On the first anniversary of Nicholas’ passing, I went into Party City, to buy white balloons because I wanted to write messages on them and release them at the cemetery (Mausoleum).  While I was in the store an old song came on, even though I’ve heard this song before, I never really knew what it was about. Suddenly I listened carefully to the lyrics which had a profound meaning to me on this day.  I think it was an ADC (after death communication) from Nicholas.

 

Artist:  Paul Simon

Title:  Mother and Child Reunion

 

No I would not give you false hope

On this strange and mournful day

But the mother and child reu-nion

Is only a motion away, oh, little darling of mine.

I can’t for the life of me

Remember a sadder day

I know they say let it be

But it just don’t work out that way

And the course of a lifetime runs

Over and over again

 

No I would not give you false hope

On this strange and mournful day

But the mother and child reu-nion

Is only a motion away, oh, little darling of mine.

 

I just can’t believe it’s so,

And though it seems strange to say

I never been laid so low

In such a mysterious way

And the course of a lifetime runs

Over and over again.

 

But I would not give you false hope

On this strange and mournful day

When the mother and child reu-nion

Is only a motion away,

Oh, oh the mother and child reunion

Is only a motion away,

Oh the mother and child reu-nion

Is only a moment away.